SIGH
I'll be honest. So let me admit this now. I am hurting a lot with how he is. I am now weak. I am not as strong as I was before. It feels like I've been consumed by the ones who haunted my past and now, I can not give to the one person who truly deserves it as much as I want to give more.
It is hard. I do not know if I need to be more understanding, forgiving, selfless and mindful of him. I'll carry the pain. I'll learn to shut down too. I'll learn to keep things to myself too. I'll learn to not to tell you everything and I'll learn to reply longer. I'll learn not to yearn. I'll learn not to seek.
I will not just learn but I will do all those starting now.
And let's just see how you'll feel.
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