All Saint's Day Mallng

November 1, 2013

After weeks of just staying at home and purely gaining weight and taking care of my mother, we have finally gone out! What a great day and at the same time we got to watch Thor so hooray!

Well okay I just noticed that I gained five pounds over the semester break and that I have been active on my blog and not just posting passages and shit but actually writing on it and creating real posts from me. Finally being able to practice my typing skills and relinquishing my vocabulary just as to what I did there haha! 

So I've got less than a week before school starts and I bet I won't be able to regularly update this blog which is seriously sad but I will definitely create a farewell post to my semester break because it has been amaze balls! Like out of this world best sem break ever! 

I gotta mention though how good Thor 2 The Dark World was though I wasn't satisfied with it. I would definitely rate it a 7.5 out of 10 because it was lacking. The story, the story and just the story really lacks. I would love to have more bits and pieces on how cunning everyone was haha! But anyhoo it was a good movie. Effects were great, costumes were amazing!! Truly outstanding especially what Natalie Portman wore during her stay is Askgard was beautiful. Something I would definitely wear in parties, balls and all that. Just beautiful! And Thor (Chris Hemsworth) was such a cutie patootsies!!! A must watch I must say. Better catch it while it's still in theaters! 

Splash!

Happiest birthday to our dearest China G!

This day was pretty amazing! After the awkward day of patching up things with the rather once again we're going  out and it's always pretty scary to ask permission from my dad whenever we go out and luckily we were allowed so hooray!! Party time again hihihihi. 

The day started out pretty boring. Just the typical hot morning followed by brunch and a moviethon afternoon. Went jogging around our village and rushed home to take a bath and get ready. But I must say, that four kilometer jog was amazing! Felt great sweating it all out and just listening to tunes whilst jogging.

So we got picked  up by our friend Carlo from home and went to the Schnell's house where the surprise would be done and picked up the brother and sister. Went to the basketball court so the boys could play whilst their girls watch them play and sweat haha! 

Then here came the surprise!! Food all around from pizzas, pasta, doughnuts, salad, lollipops and more treats for the kiddos! What made this night remarkable was the resurrection of our dearest Kuya Jj! We had our heart-to-heart with each other with what happened to me and the boy who unfortunately deceived me and made me the third party of his relationship which was totally fucked up but anyway we just got stories out which was great. Built a strong connection within us and four more of the girl friends we have. 

After such serious conversation HERE GOES THE POOL JUMP!!!!! Yay pool party time HAHAHAHA. It was so freezing but hoorah!! More bonding time and just pure fun!

I must say that it's pretty amazing how this semester break made us close with each other starting from pre-Halloween events to this day. I finally feel like I belong and that I deserve to be in the central. Just a little bit more push to get close with one another but other than that I am thankful for having been given the chance to be close with them. Thank You!

Turning Tables

Tables have turned after those exchange if words.

It is always good to end the day with  happiness and have everything patched up.

It has been a rough morning with the father but I just brith out the perkiness in me and the shared the love to be able to bring all as one. Embracing each other was glorious. It felt whole. And after that my dad kinda teared up and I told him that I was sorry and that I love him and it felt good and I know he felt the same way. I love my dad despite everything. I'm just too self centered to think about his cause which is all for us, to be better people morally upright, wise and responsible and most especially ready for the future and all those decision makings. He does not want us to stray from the right oath but rather stay on it. There might be side tracks which are inevitable but with those side tracks I would take and have taken, I have been able to pick up a couple of lessons that had helped in my upbringing. 

I am just truly thankful that we've patched up. I am thankful for my loving and most caring father who has taught me everything that I know right now. I now he is not that pleased enough with me but I do hope that I would be able to live up to his expectations and make him proud once again. 

It Kills

Yes, it truly kills me to see firstly my mother crying, my father not communing, my little brother crying, my sister mad and my oldest brother just being him distant.

Today, I just witnessed his my little brother was torn because of our father. And I must say that I have cried over a hundred times because of how truly hurtful my father's words are and how he treats me and actually all of us. I do love my father that's for sure but most of the time, he's just really hurtful. I'm not sure if he's teaching us how to be strong or what, but whatever he's doing is not really working to make us stronger. I know he wants us to be the best that we can, to grow up morally and to be wise as he is to be able to make the right decisions and do the just things but his ways are, I may say, overboard. He hurts in order to teach. But can't he teach without hurting? There are gazillions of right ways to do it why not choose among those over the million of wrong ways to do so right?

When my little brother suddenly broke down in tears, I was so torn. He is such a strong boy, or should I say a strong man and definitely wiser than I am, but at that moment, he was suddenly a different person for he cried in front of me and all I could do was tap his back, embrace him and tell him to just breathe. I have been what he has been through and I definitely know the feeling. That exact hurt he felt, I still feel it. We love our father so much that we would sacrifice our life but this treachery if I may call it is just wrong. He is it the perfect father as he says and as his children we should understand but there is no going back in time when we haven't felt that certain hurt like do you even seriously love us? Cause if you do hurting us would not be your ways. We now envy the families of our friends whom we see are so happy. Like legit happy that you could not imagine them fighting, getting mad at each other or hidden desires to hurt one another and how we wish that we could be like them. That we could be whole. No gaps, no secrets, no negativities whatsoever. And I just hope and am praying that one day, we would reach that point of pure happiness. We should NOT wait for someone to be lost before things turn around right? Why not just make the most of the time that we have for each other and just be loving to one another, set aside all hate and just LOVE.

I still believe that one day, we would be in that state, but as of now, I guess we should all just suck it up, pretend a little and appreciate the tiniest bit of happiness even if it's not within all of us that we share our love. Smile towards everyone inspite of the silence breathing in the room and just try reaching out and conveying what you want to commune to ignite that feeling.

Just for a Day of Pure Bliss

Rewind back to Sunday October twenty-seventh two thousand and thirteen:

Sacrificing a couple just to have the night you've yearned for, a night of pure happiness.

It has been a long time since I have spent a solid day with my friends that day, I finally had it. And I must say, it was all worth it. Spending my Sunday with the few people whom I've just known for barely a year has been wonderful beyond words. The joy I felt, the togetherness, the excitement the thrill and everything in between. It wasn't just all that though. It was duties at first but the after part was amaze balls!

The day started out with our Parish Youth Central meeting at our friend's house, turned to lunch with everyone then off to ours kid's mass and afterward back to the Gabriel's crib! That Sunday was their village's Halloween Trick or Treatin' so I gave out the candies and saw those cute kids in their costumes and all. After that we just hung out in their entertainment room and played PS3. Everyone was just so pumped and trash talking like there's no tomorrow and we were all just enjoying so so much! Like too much haha! And I don't  know that day just bonded us to each other like we got to know more about one another so that was really great. I must admit I was not close to most of the people in the central but after that day, it was really awesome. 

And then came dinner where we all are pasta and cinnamon rolls which were absolutely delicious! And came the movies conversation. Like what's your favorite television show, movie starting from the nineties to the twentieth century. Oh how it was so good to reminisce the days where good cartoons were still aired, legit anime series (which I must say aren't jejemon) were still on and all that good times. We even thought about the theme songs to those series! I was like what's that song for One Tree Hill? The one that Gavin deGraw sang? And we were suddenly singing: I don't wanna be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately. All I have to do is to be me lalalalalaaaaaa and we were totally adorable!!

After our glorious feast we popped some popcorn in the microwave and started on with our first film... Sinister. It was soooooo cold and just dark everywhere. We were just sitting everywhere, each with a pillow and blankets and we even made jokes of some of the horror scenes in the movie which was adorbs haha!! Gab was like that sounded wrong (inset green minded look here) and we'd all laugh and forget how scared we were haha. 

On to our next film: The Conjuring. Ok I must admit I was freaking scared!! Like WHATDAPAK. But what Gab said was true that it was actually interesting that you'd want to research about it. The Conjuring was based on true events so right? Who would not become interested about it right? But sadly we were not able to finish the film since my dad was like mad and all that typical-angry-father-go-home-now thingy. So we had to leave and not finish the film. How sad we did not finish but golly how fun that whole day was!

Spending thirteen full hours with one another was not enough at all! It's like we're family hehe. I hope we'd have part two next time! At our crib naman and we'll try to be great hosts hehe. Hopefully during my birthday I can create a little get together to celebrate my birthday cause they truly are amazing people whom I want to be surrounded with. 

I thank You for blessing me with such amazing people and keeping them around me. 

Present: China, Carlo, Gio, Mike, Jason, Gab, Matt, Aira, Fred & Alma