March 1st 2014

I was still up past midnight. I spent the first minutes of this month thinking about him. Thinking about what was currently happening to him. But I was assured that he wouldn't do anything foolish or whatsoever yet I just wanted he assurance of his safety. But then thirty minutes after midnight, I fell asleep. 

I then woke up to a flat morning, I immediately got a hold of my phone and scrolled through my notifications and found his text saying that he's safe and all. I trusted him and I knew with whatever he says, he wouldn't lie or whatever. 

My morning started with a cool breeze from outside and so I got out of my bed and immediately took a shower and got ready for school. I had breakfast at Pancake House with my parents. Ate their new dish called Banana Nutella Crisp Toast. It was too buttery for my taste but it was still food and still good. So I headed to school after this and attended my first class for Saturday. As usual, NSTP was pretty chill and useless ha ha. Just for attendance's sake and my teacher, I went to school. 

He  haven't texted me since this morning and I figured, he was still asleep at Clark's condominium. I tried waking him up so that they could go to school but as usual, no effect. He was really tired from last night so I just let him be. He needed the rest he could get from today. After three hours my friends (Denise, Shine & Boogie) and I tried this milk tea called SUPER CUP, a milk tea place, and what I got for myself was Wintermelon Black tea. I must say that it was so good! Sweet yet light to the tummy. Just something I like!! Perfect for the cool sunny morning.

Back in school, they finally attended class. It was great seeing him. It competed my day. After class he at and we headed to Shangri-la since I was being fetched there. When we arrived, we went straight to the food court and out of nowhere I heard someone calling me BADS. And I knew it right there and then, that high pitched "piyok" toned voice was Charlene. My dearest friend since my grade school days. My eyes grew big as I saw her and I immediately made my way towards her and hugged her real tight! I was surprised to see her and so happy that I did!! She immediately asked me who I was holding hands with and I told her a brief story of who he is and who he is in my life. I was glad to have been able to introduce him to her and my friends there :) (Eka, Shawn, Nyanya and Mila) It was so great to have been able to catch up with her and I really didn't expect that afternoon but it was an additional to making my day wholesome. 

After our short bonding they then left and I'm back with my college friends to eat. We just had continuous stories thrown at the table and jokes here and there and it was really fun. Mike then arrived and shortly after we finished eating, my parents arrived. 

After that, we parted ways. Mike and I had our shoes window shopping and movie date together! It was a long day but I am glad that every bit of today happened. 

February 28th 2014 (2 of 2)

The day went on smoothly. I kept strong and just wanted to fold into someone and that was in him. I saw him an hour after I arrived in school. He was there and he lent his ears to me and I was thankful I could open to him. I felt really comfortable with him that I just started tearing up and he just sat beside me and started to hug me. He thinks in a way where he considers every aspect, every option and with every person involved. He's selfless and I need selflessness in my life. He gave me ideas that were accurate with how the situation with me and dad were in. It felt good that I could've opened that to him yet I was shy because I knew he went through so much already that he learned to be strong and I was there beside him slightly breaking down and thinking lowly of myself. But despite that I knew I should smile. I was stronger. I felt stronger. I easily was able to pick myself up and just thought: LIFE GOES ON. JUST DEAL WITH EVERY AND SNY SITUATION. 

I am thankful for him. I really am. He somewhat understands me and he totally makes me feel safe. 

Lunch came and it was just me, him and Carlo who came to school that day. So we has lunch together. Fortunately, our two kabarkada ex-classmates had the same break as ours so we bonded over lunch. They were curious about how he and I have our thing now hehe. So they told me to tell them our story and I was like noooo he's just here beside me!! That would be totally awkward yet nice but noooo. So they suggested that they would just ask questions and that we just answer them and I was like fine with it so yeah. So they asked their first question, when did this all start? I looked at him and told him to answer my friend. And he answered first during his birthday and I was like uhm no? It was two days after his birthday!! Haha. So he told the story what happened and he asked me  was that the one in the dorm? And I was like yes! And they reacted so funnily cause they assumed if we like did something HAHA. And we were like noooooo. So he told the story how he admitted and I responding to his admittance 😋 So next question: WHAT ARE YOU GUYS? And then again we couldn't answer because we didn't know where we are haha. But we are happy that's for sure especially for me. So pass pass next question please! So third and last question:  are you courting Tin or are you MU or are you counting for MU or courting courting??  And we suddenly looked at each other and we definitely had the same thing in mind: THIS IS A TOPIC WE HAVENT DISCUSSED YET AND SHE ALREADY ASKED UUUUUUGH KROO KROO. HAHA. CRAZY HOW WE THINK ALIKE AT TIMES. So we were like referring to the previous question idk. Can't really answer the question because he honestly had no idea what to answer and to answer without us having discussed it HAHA. 

So after all the questioning our two girl friends left for class and Carlo did too. So we were left alone at the restaurant. He started talking...

He started telling me how our friend Mina, went ahead of us haha. Like he was waiting for the right time, the right moment and the right situation when we could talk about it. But it was a topic that was already open so might as well talk about it now. He told me how he and his dorm mate Aldrin have already spoken about it and he first jocked asking me if I wanted to know what he told him and I was like uhmmm we're already into the situation. Might as well say it already HAHA! So he told me how he wasn't gonna court me yet because of the situation how illegal it would be for me and the timing isn't right yet. Especially with what I had going on with my dad, it wouldn't be like a good time for it. And I was like I totally agree with him. That we were on the same page which was great. I told him what Jj's advice was to me about labeling things. I opened to him how scary it was if certain situations would pop along the way. Especially if he suddenly leaves but I told him that I was sure that he wouldn't do that sort of thing. He smiled when he heard that and so did I inside. I was sure of him that he wouldn't do anything on purpose to hurt me. He would surely be vice-less, honest, loyal and always understanding to me. I told him that if he did court me at that moment I wouldn't say yes too because the time isn't right yet. YET. But if we were there at the spectacular, right moment, I would definitely say yes to him. We were leveled with each other in this situation that was great. We had an agreement and I was thankful we had that conversation. 

Splash!

Happiest birthday to our dearest China G!

This day was pretty amazing! After the awkward day of patching up things with the rather once again we're going  out and it's always pretty scary to ask permission from my dad whenever we go out and luckily we were allowed so hooray!! Party time again hihihihi. 

The day started out pretty boring. Just the typical hot morning followed by brunch and a moviethon afternoon. Went jogging around our village and rushed home to take a bath and get ready. But I must say, that four kilometer jog was amazing! Felt great sweating it all out and just listening to tunes whilst jogging.

So we got picked  up by our friend Carlo from home and went to the Schnell's house where the surprise would be done and picked up the brother and sister. Went to the basketball court so the boys could play whilst their girls watch them play and sweat haha! 

Then here came the surprise!! Food all around from pizzas, pasta, doughnuts, salad, lollipops and more treats for the kiddos! What made this night remarkable was the resurrection of our dearest Kuya Jj! We had our heart-to-heart with each other with what happened to me and the boy who unfortunately deceived me and made me the third party of his relationship which was totally fucked up but anyway we just got stories out which was great. Built a strong connection within us and four more of the girl friends we have. 

After such serious conversation HERE GOES THE POOL JUMP!!!!! Yay pool party time HAHAHAHA. It was so freezing but hoorah!! More bonding time and just pure fun!

I must say that it's pretty amazing how this semester break made us close with each other starting from pre-Halloween events to this day. I finally feel like I belong and that I deserve to be in the central. Just a little bit more push to get close with one another but other than that I am thankful for having been given the chance to be close with them. Thank You!