Monday, May 12, 2014

Four Little Things That Causes my Happiness


1. Smooth Caffeine
Will I did not really have any good adjective to attach to caffeine but then the word 'smooth' just popped in mind. 
Whether it be coffee, shakes, frappuccinos, tea, milk tea or even cocoa, it just easily sets me up in a great mood! Whenever I need to perk up, I just whip myself up a mug of coffee or stop by at the nearest coffee shop and grab a cup. Whenever I'm feeling stressed, I just pour myself hot water in my favorite tumblr and steep a tea bag in. Whenever I'm sick, I ask for a mug of very hot green tea (sometimes even with a teaspoon full of honey and a slice of lime. Whenever I'm just reading a book  I'll make myself iced coffee. Whenever I just feel like chilling out, I'd stay in a cafe store and order myself endless frappuccinos or iced coffees. My favorite by the way is a non-fat, iced caramel macchiato with an extra shot of espresso and extra ice and caramel syrup!! YUMM! Now I'm definitely craving for one!


2. Flowy Conversations
Okay another adjective that seems appropriate but does not really exist in the dictionary haha! Though I hope you get the meaning of that adjective.

*though*




Moments when someone starts a conversation with you it just goes on and on and time just passed by without you noticing it? Well that just amazes me and give that certain feeling of content and (redundantly) happiness because you enhance and strengthen that 'bond' you have with the person you just had that certain conversation with. Numerous topics were spoken about and the conversation just continued and continued even if the conversation ended just because either of the conversees (yup another term I created here) had to go or whatever but there was still more you wanted to say or wanted to talk about or even yet you felt extremely contented with the conversation. That just creates a euphoric feeling.


3. Thoughtfulness
*Root adjective = thoughtful* I was really into this adjective thing but no noun could best suffice that adjective. Haha!

Those random, sudden, out of the blue things people say or do to/for you. Those simple text messages, Twitter/Instagram/Facebook posts, and gestures people do to make you feel that 'hey I still exist and I thought of you' or simply saying that they miss you. That pretty much warms up my heart and creates that instantly loved feels radiating through.


4. HONEST words




That is like the best adjective ever created! Who in this world created this because you seriously deserve a holiday named after you. Haha! I like use this adjective to every great person I know or who I want to meet/have in my life like my parents, sibling, best friends, dream husband, future husband, some teachers and relatives. Because it speaks of truthfulness and the reality whether it is good or bad.

The honest compliments, comments, sayings or whatever that people tell you are the ones that would truly help you be molded. Even in just simple shit like someone correcting you with your grammar or with what you're wearing or your actions but it also greatly depends on the manner people say it towards you. Though I am still thankful for the honesty whenever. It makes things work all the time.


Monday, April 28, 2014

People Who Are Too Nice That You Could NOT Imagine nor Fathom Them Doing Wrong (and the like)


MUST admit that I am thinking on this a lot haha
I am honestly okay now. I am not hurting and I feel like I am nearing towards brightness,
towards the happiness I used to finish. I know I am damaged but I may always be patched
up. Yes, it will take time and tons of overloading effort and ways to do so, but I will be
whole again. I do know that.

I am just thinking about why he did so though. Just wondering in my mind why things
came to that certain point.

My thoughts on this and with the things that has happened or are still happening (?) are
still on point. It just makes me think not as often as before and okay I still do stalk with
his social media accounts just to somehow keep on track and see if he's feeling still.
That's what I worry or wonder the most about. I want to KNOW firstly what he feels.
Is he sad? Broken hearted? Worried about me? Scared? Happy? Free? or what? I just
need an answer to that question maybe not exactly what but at least and idea what he's
feeling. Another is what he's thinking. Scratch that. Is he thinking about me? Every night,
everyday, sometimes, often? Next is what is is he planning to do? We are (I have not
decided yet) unfortunately/fortunately transferred to the same section which is the cream
or star section of our batch. So that probably means that I belong to the top forty students
in our batch. So that out of around 650++ students. Which is something to be proud of and
actually HAPPY about but I'm not. And my friend Kim told me to act civil and just not
let everything bother me. Heart even said that I should not be doing shitty things just
because of some stupid asshole and he is goddamn right!

I must regain my sense of optimism and everything good in me!!!
I can do this and I have survived through worse and I KNOW I CAN DO THIS



I BELIEVE IN MYSELF


Tuesday, April 22, 2014

I am...



Broken. 


I am not as optimistic as I used to be
I am not as patient as I used to be
I am not as encouraging now
I am not organized anymore
My mind is scattered
I am all over the place.

My heart is broken,
How can it mend?

Sunday, April 06, 2014

Payatan Diaries: Summer 2014: Page 2

April 6, 2014 Sunday
Starting weight: 113.8 lbs.
Second weight: 111.6 lbs.
Current weight: 112.4 lbs.


Food plan:
- Minimal caffeine (Includes coffee, milk tea, tea & chocolates)
- Less rice
- No beef as usual
- No processed food
- A little binge eating ERRR
- Minimal sweets hehe






Exercise plan:
- ZUMBAAAA!!!!!


Realizations:
- Stomach is still soft eww
- Stronger arms
- Firm legs hahahaha
MUST JOG TOO!!
MUST BE CONSISTENT WITH FOOD.


Gonna try:
- Fruits, veggies and H2O diet
- High protein diet


Sunday, March 30, 2014

Payatan Diaries: Summer 2014: Page 1



March 28, 2014 Friday 
Starting weight: 113.8 lbs.

 Food plan:
- No caffeine (Includes coffee, milk tea, tea & chocolates)
- Less rice
- No beef as usual
- No processed food

Exercise plan:
- NO EXERCISE YET HUHU :(



March 31, 2014 Monday
Current weight: 111.6 lbs.


Food plan:
- A little caffeine
- Less rice
- No beef, processed food
- Less salt!
- Eat slower


Realizations:
Clean eating helps!
Happy vibes helps a lot! Decreases pollutants in the body A.K.A. Stress Toxins
No stress doesn't leads to binge eating
Control is a must
Think before whatever you place inside your mouth
No to midnight snacks!
Sleep is for the weak HAHA
HAPPY VIBES!!!!!

NO EXERCISE STILL ERRR!!


Plan for the coming days:
Replace snacks to plain popcorn
Eat more fruits and vegetables
No to binging
EXERCISE PLS

FACTS ABOUT POPCORN:
 http://www.bottomlinepublications.com/content/article/diet-a-exercise/popcorneven-healthier-than-you-thought

IT'S really a healthier choice of snack over anything else! Just don't forget to keep it purely popcorn as possible! No butter, salt, powdered flavorings or anything else ;)