Vent

Gosh. I can not fathom how badly this afternoon went. I mean fuck man. Y u do this to me?!

Or maybe I expected something from you which I should not have done.

But wait. Dude, you seriously made me, in Tagalog, ASA.

You freaking had me at the tip of my toes, at the edge of my seat, at the end of a bridge.

What did I get????

A fucking fall.

I am such a dumbass to feel this way and you are such a douche that made me feel like this.

Fuck you man.

I feel so bad right now.

First of all you made me wait for thirty minutes ALONG THE STREET. COME ON.

We spoke about it that we'll meet at 12:45 and all and I was ready at that exact time

I even rushed home, took a bath so fast and dressed up as quickly as I can and you just did NOT MAKE IT ON TIME EVEN I YOU ARE JUST HALF A KILOMETER AWAY FROM ME?!!!!!!

Seriously who makes a girl wait for a guy????? 

And suddenly you don't even meet me cause your parents suddenly decided to bring you there.

K fine

I let that pass like okay never mind let's just meet at this certain place.

So I was walking and the rain suddenly poured down on me like a storm. 

I was freaking wet from me shoes to my hips. As if I walked through a kiddie pool.

And your car suddenly passed by me and you did NOT. I REPEAT YOU DID NOT EVEN BOTHER

TO STOP AND ASK IF I WANTED A RIDE. PUTANGINA MO LANG PRAMIS

SO OK I WALK AND WALK UNTIL I GOT THERE.

OK I GOT THERE WHERE WERE YOU????

Did you even care?????

Like wow ah no care thanks!

Were you even glad to see me???

It was a friend that even helped me dry myself and all 

And what did you do? Nothing

I was the first one who even approached you 

Thanks man. You've got some serious problems with girls

Like what happened to you?????

You weren't like this before. 

I mean I thought everything was going pretty well and suddenly you're like that with me?

Well fine.

Two can play at that game

You think I'm weak that I can not resist you? Well it is you who is going to fall down on your knees and beg me to be nice.

I send my middle finger to wherever you are cause you deserve it.

We're such a weird asshole earlier.

but wait rewind to last night. So you had your night out with friends.
Dinner, movies and shit and suddenly you don't text?
Wow ah not even good night or whatever I even slept so late because I was waiting for you to get home and what happens to me? I stayed up late like a dumbass bafoon.
Yup parang tanga lang antay antay din kahit pagod na jusco. But psh yesterday was yesterday.

All-in-one tong today eh! One whole package ka nga talaga bui!

And of course that hatred would not just come from those light reasons

Of course I saved the best for last.

YOU WERE FUCKING ASHAMED OF ME IN FRONT OF EVERYONE

LIKE ARE YOU SURE YOU WERE YOURSELF EARLIER???

ARE YOU SURE THAT YOU ARE YOU AND THAT YOU LIKE ME??

Ok

DO YOU EVEN LIKE ME???? Like seriously tell me because what you told me and what you showed me earlier is SOOOOOOOOO DIFFERENT FROM EACH OTHER.

I SERIOUSLY CAN NOT TAKE THAT

SOMEONE BEING ASHAMED OF ME????

GOOD BYE IS WHAT I'LL TELL YOU

LTHERE ARE SO MUCH BETTER GUYS THERE. A LOT SMARTER, SWEETER, GOOD LOOKING, RICHER AND EVERYTHING ELSE THAT YOU ARE.

I JUST CAN NOT CONTINUE TO LIKE SOMEONE WHO IS ASHAMED OF ME

AND NOW YOU ASK ME IF IM OKAY?!

I effing wanna tell you that I am not but I choose not to reply

Dude TAKE A HINT.

ARE TOU THAT DENSE AND SLOW TO NOT GET WHAT A GIRL IS FEELING????

Of what a girl wants??? It is so simple. To show me that you CARE. Not just tell me that you do but SHOW ME. SHOW ME. He said that he was much more of actions than words but now, I can see nothing. I'm the one who talks all the time, make conversations (that you do not want to participate in), talk to you first, hug you, show care for you, make you happy but why have you suddenly changed?

I know we're not together together but man. Respect for a girl's feelings. That's all we want and need. Initiative and understanding. 

Now I do not know how I feel about you. I am kinda turned off with your actions and I don't know. I just lost that sense of doing. Nawalan na ako ng gana. I really like you but I hope you make it up to me stat. For all that has happened not just for this day but I'll just pray for it.

Right now I just feel frustrated like I don't want to continue anymore. 

If you really like me you'd feel the difference in me and that you'd find it in yourself to fix whatever this "misunderstanding" you caused.